Today. Right now. That’s what we got. That’s all we got. What will we do with it?
I’ve been looking at the past 6-9 months and thinking about all the stuff I HAVEN’T done, all the stuff I STARTED BUT DIDN’T FINISH! Ugh! It feels crappy, like I’ll never get it right!
Boy, that thought is sure not serving me! Huh? What to do, what to do? I know! How about a new thought?! Let’s see…”the past 6 months has been the best 6 months of my life.” Hmm… maybe not. “I feel so super proud of the last 6 months of work I’ve done and created.” Nope, that’s not it either. I’m giving it one more shot…
“Everything that I DID DO and every little step that I DID TAKE and all the thoughts and feelings that I consciously created have prepared me for this moment.” Well, that’s better. Even if I don’t completely believe it or believe that I did my best, I’m going to try this on and see if I can create a feeling of motivation. Motivation to get to work, to chase my dreams, to become my true unique self and use my voice!
I think it would be helpful to look back at my why. My BIG WHY. Why do I want to do something bigger than anything I’ve done before? Why do I want to put myself out there and be vulnerable? Risking rejection and criticism? That doesn’t sound fun! But I remember all the deep work I’ve done on myself and what my coaches would say and how I coach myself and I know that this is just another part of the journey. Like if it was easy, everyone would do it and it certainly wouldn’t be as meaningful or rewarding as it feels to me now.
None of us get it “right” 100% of the time, yet, if we can just continue or even start to believe in ourselves a little bit more each day, to know that, no matter what we do (think, say or act) we are still 100% worthy and nothing can ever take that away from us. Our primitive brain wants us to stay safe in the cave and, sometimes, that’s necessary. But it can also get real dark in there or real uneventful and meaningless, tiresome, and even dreadful. Outside the cave, in this big, scary world is where all the action is! So, I’m going to take a page from my Mother’s life (that’s a blog for another day!) and overcome my negative thoughts, and just get to work.
Knowing that I allowed my “negative” thoughts and feelings to happen and I still took action will help me sleep tonight, knowing I slayed this day to the best of my ability at this point in my journey. And, so, I encourage you to look inside yourself at your big why. In what ways have the last months been preparing you for this moment? Take some time and journal about it. You may not know at first, but as the words flow from your mind to your pen to your paper, you may discover something amazing about yourself, your life, or your circumstances. Or maybe it is just something small that you can be grateful for today. When in doubt, just say thank you for a chance to be alive!
Namaste, cheers to your soul!